Just thinking of you

"Maybe when you are a kid life is still so full of wonder that there can be no real surprises, because almost everything is a surprise. Or perhaps children just adapt faster than adults." (Tony Parsons, Man and Boy)

I've been wondering how Faiz deals with these long separations? Is he so used to it now that it seems normal to him? We decided that Faiz should stay with Mehvesh because she's been more of a constant in his life, and the fewer the disruptions, the better. But I miss him. And he misses me too (he's always cranky after web-caming). Does it make sense to him that I go away for so long? Does he sense that something is wrong?

We hope he won't remember this time, or at least won't be permanently 'damaged' by it. But who's to say? It will probably shape him in one way or another. We're bearing so many sacrifices for a better tomorrow, a better life. But are we forgetting that this is life? And if it's not the life we desire then we should change it now. For now.

Someday

When I'm awfully low,

When the world is cold,

I will feel a glow

Just thinking of you,

And the way you look tonight.